Thoughts of a 20 year old child💭

 Earlier today, A friend of mine asked me if i wanted to get married and I told her this : “No... Being emotionally invested in someone is a huge risk. Men will make you feel shitty about yourself, Make you hate yourself, Make you think that something is really wrong with you. Then boom! You actually believe that you incapable of getting loved the way you want, you feel scared because you feel you are asking for too much, Then you feel you  should fix yourself until you don't recognize yourself anymore. I love love but i don't want to get married. Im not ready to deal with uncertainty and anxiety and dull ache in my chest. I don't even have what it takes to be emotionally invested in someone, I will just be scared. Its exhausting!.   With someone you care about, you actually meant to be at ease but every time I'm at panic mode, trying to save my head and my feelings, trying so hard not to get hurt. So, no I no dey reason marriage”. Sha my mom shouldn’t see this because ...

“ For one to love another, He must first love himself” In all honesty, I’ve never really understood this statement, i’ve never really understood how loving one’s self affects the way you love another person( or maybe i understand but i’m clueless, i no sabi sha🤷🏼‍♀️). To a lot, self love could mean a lot of things, To A, it could be putting yourself before others and To Y, it could simply mean “yes, on this day, i want to be selfish” and to some of my friends, it could just be saying no to people( which i really need to learn, omo!).  At times, I do find myself in situations which made me think “oh! If only i loved myself a little bit more, this wouldn’t have happened” and also in situations which made me realize that truly i do really should learn how to put myself first. So I'm going to narrate one of those situations/scenarios. Okayyy........ one time, when i was in school( I’m still a student sha), during my exams, there was this course I had not read properly and I have this...